Limited..

"Limitations are undoubtedly what make us human."
-Robin Tey

I have always seen life without limitation..
Simply because this has always been the way I have tried to live..
Simply because this has always been the greatest lesson I thought I could ever teach myself..
Should and obstacle physical or mental present itself to me..
My first step would be the assess the limitation present..
Subsequently followed by the advancement of the bar of limitation..
Not a simple step further.. Not even just two steps..
But a complete leap forward..
To a destination without a footing of it's own..
To those, who know me surface present..
Understand that I am an individual who is in actuality incapable of understanding limitations..
I've always presented myself to exert myself to insurmountable lengths..
I've always presented myself to constantly perform impossible feats..
I've always presented myself to demonstrate conviction unheard of..
I've always presented myself to show optimism that shouldn't exist..
I've always presented myself to possess knowledge through experiences I have yet to have..
I've always presented myself to be a being without said 'limits'.
But, for all the people I manage to impress..
Physically..
Mentally..
For all the times I have told myself limitations are for the weak..
Limitations don't exist in my realm..
I find myself reaching said limitations already..
In the short time I have lived I have found a true limitation in myself..
And it is this physical limitation that has hindered my mental and emotional limitations..

Today, for the first time ever.. I found myself incapable of performing..
Physically performing like I always have to impress those around me..
Kicking and punching at speeds that have always impressed everyone..
Exercising at speeds and exerting numbers that were literally top of the class..
And yet, today.. I found myself incapable of kicking and punching without tiring immediately..
I performed kicks without power..
Punches without power..
All that filled my mind was limitations..
The limitations that showed through in my tire..
At that point all I desired was to stop and to go home already..
All I see from this is the disappointment in myself that I have always tried to avoid..
The one thing I thought I could stay away from..
Being weak..
But I guess even through all my efforts this will always be all that I have to show..
The weak being that I will always be..
Full of impossibility..
And incapability..
In all honesty.. I can't imagine where I will be in the future..
Not the next second.. Not tomorrow.. Not next week.. Next month.. Or in ten years..
There is no image of where I will stand..
Who will be in my life..
Or whether or not I could possibly survive ten more years as I am now.. Truthfully..

I am limited at heart..