Attempts..

Slowly.. But surely words seem to escape my mind..
All I know is that for all the controlled thoughts that leave my mind in the form of words..
Words that I can grasp..
What replaces them is confusion..
Thoughts that I have no control over..
Thoughts too much to handle right now..
In my current state..
In my exhaustion..
Arriving on location to where I am..
I am literally incapable of retracing the steps that physically took to get there..
As was Tuesday..
I failed to remember how I got to the restaurant I arrived at..
Despite having only 'just' sat down..
I'm not too sure if I should be concerned..
I only know this strong lack of memory is becoming a problem..
But, I suppose all I can do is attempt to remember with the best that I can..

Despite this hindering.. I know, that it isn't stopping me from my attempts to give chase..
I only know it is making it hard..
But, I have always been the individual that has thrived upon challenges right?..

I can't help but admit I showed excitement throughout the day in the hopes..
The hopes that something I planned might happen..
To see a certain individual.