Continuation

Without failure..
Yesterday has come to return into the realms of today..
Come home on precisely for 'sleeping time'..
Wake up early in the morning to drive or be driven..
Attempt the completion of tasks in record time to see certain individual/individuals..
Once this possibility occurs..
The next task is the remaining of positions until closing hours..
Quite simple..
But it is more than possible of keeping me entertained..
At personal costs..

It is true that I have truly learned to suppress all pessimistic thoughts..
As pessimistic an individual I may truly be..
Only until the dreaded still of the night..
However until then I can clearly see the focuses of the day..
Bright as day..
Despite the moons' altitude.
It is more than easy to be able to claim this to be 'fun' with truth behind it as well..
But I can't help but think that one day I just won't be able to continue this trend..
One day it will be too hard for me to continue this trend and lifestyle of mine..
One day, I just won't be able to..
Even most probably in the near future..

Is it worth a true smile or two during the day?..
Do I of all people have to always continue to engage in sacrifices..
Even just for the smallest step forward..
And for all the steps backwards I have already taken..
All the leaps behind I took with each new day..
Is it worth it despite me understanding that it truly is already much too late..
For me, doing this for myself..
Am I really doing it this way or just continuing another fashion of a detrimental act..
All I know is that I have intentions of continuation in mind..
With all the questions I hold and ask..
The only one asking..
The only one listening..
The only one answering..
Is me.
No outside influence..
No one else but me..
To continue.. Forever onwards..