Unpredicted..

I don't really know how to phrase this myself anymore..
But, I suppose the disappointments came in faster than I ever predicted..
However.. There was one thing that I never accounted for..
I never expected that I would feel a little bit of happiness by today's end..
Especially after all the emotions that I lost.. I really.. Surprised myself.
I tried my best to hide the fact that the first twenty years of my life were over..

But some people really just went out of their way to make yesterday count..
Seeing a friend I never see, spending time with her and getting the first present..
And, opening it just really let me see how much she remembered when I talked..
Though I doubt she'd ever read this..

A friend of mine going out of her way to say happy birthday..
Even though we lost contact a long time ago through a strong falling out..
One of the bigger surprises of the day..

The collection of people that attacked me with birthday wishes..
Despite yesterday being another typical coaching day in my head..

The second birthday present from another friend that I should probably talk to more..

The birthday wish attempts at 12am on the dot..
Didn't really think anyone would even all the way from Wellington..

But I guess one thing I expected was that..
Even before my birthdays end..
I was there having to talk people through their troubles yet again..
Spending effort on my birthday despite those people wishing me a good birthday..
I still had to be there to comfort them and make them feel better..
On the day I needed to feel better the most..
But I expected this as much so truthfully I'm not surprised..
Just more disappointment in the long run..

Twenty years have come and gone.. And it's now a new era for me.
I just might need to live this one up this time.