New Whim..

Seldom would I allow myself to act on such emotions..
A whim..
A random occurrence..
A random feeling..
That tells you do something..
Only because you momentarily choose to..
With momentary reasoning..

I repeatedly placed excuses..
I repeatedly found reasoning..
I repeatedly created logic..
Just to avoid this situation at all costs..
I used my experiences as excuses..
I used my beliefs as reasoning..
I used my knowledge as logic..
And even then..
With the arsenal that I developed with my own two hands..
I denied it all in a single moment..
Just because of a 'new' whim..

My life has taken a different path..
All because I met 'new' individuals..
All because of a 'new' adventure I embarked on..
All because of a 'new' feeling I'm chasing..

Was it right that I did what I did?..
Do I have any regrets in doing so?..
Without hesitation my mind speaks out sternly..
With a single word.
No.
No regrets..
No remorse..
No rue..
Just.. Acceptance.
Acceptance of my decision in the moment.
My 'new' found whim.

In essence.. I am somewhat..
Somewhat glad I mentioned it to this person..
With the experiences of my five years accumulated to this moment.
I instantaneously gathered I could trust this person..
I instantaneously gathered that this person had true depth..
I instantaneously gathered this person could understand..
This time.. I didn't wait..
This time.. I did.
Without hesitation or thought stopping my motion.

It would seem that we've lived many similar experiences..
Many similar situations..
Many similar thought patterns..
But all the while living completely different lives.
With a nonchalant composure..
I never expected..
That even my expectations could be surpassed..
In all my years of reading the individuals around me..
I found very little surprise in my assumptions..
Let alone the positive.

Would I.. Could I.. Should I?
Run my life on this 'new' whim?..