The will to deny memory filled dreams is no longer existent but . . Replaced by the pull of the dreams of memories. . .
The will to live on the surface evaporated by reluctance but . . Revealed by the will to be true. . .The reality of a single moment backtracks to the desires of the past . . Realizing what was once loss. . .
Feeling everything but nothing at all . . . Witness to the meaningless seconds of time before me. . Watching seconds, minutes and hours pass by with only a single thought plaguing my mind. . . the sweet memories of what was once hard now becomes what i strive for. . .
am i sad . . ? No. . . But . . Rather the words happy and empty engulfs my mind as i sit here. .Incapable of wording my truest of thoughts and intentions. . . I've lived in content for a time too long. . .Wishing i could deny a title that shouldn't of been there. . .This lie of a title. . .Knowing only one thing that has fulfilled my wishes of true happiness. . .And now. .To live once more in the embrace of belonging and true happiness. . .I feel my mind to drift. . . Unable to focus or settle. . .
True happiness and belonging. . .Words i used to bathe in. . .I don't know what to think as of now. . .But i wonder. . .Am I shaping a path to a desired new me. . .Or. .Am I just backtracking to the me i wished i stayed as. . .?
My mind wanders astray but . . Lives with the will to reshape what once was and the retain of a ray that has shined brightest through my times of content. . .
My mind is still incapable of wording what i feel. . . Having been dormant for how long. . .Rather . . . I'll just sleep it off. . . Who knows. . .Maybe I'll be able to think by then . . . . .
I've despised living on the surface . . . =D
